Lubak10's Log

[A l t e r E g o 9]

Happy Easter Lubak10! I like Easter too, the most Hope-filled day of year imo.

[Lubak10 0]

3-30-05

 

Today was one of the best days ever! It was bright and sunny after they predicted thunderstorms. I got to play golf in that nice sunny, but not too hot weather, and my mom let me borrow the car so on the way to the course and back I had my sunglasses on, windows rolled down, and Toby Mac in the CD player. It was awesome!

 

Friday is the first day of spring break and I'm leaving tomorrow night to visit Northern Michigan University. On my way back I'll visit Central Mich. But I don't think I'll end up at Central. It's more of a back up school. I should go pack now.

[Lubak10 0]

3-12-05

 

I'm excited! Tomorrow is the first golf invitational of the year. I get to take the whole day off of school to play golf! How awesome is that! I'm going to miss part of a Judaism lecture but I can get the notes from Angie or John. I'm a bit nervous cause this is my first competition. Since last year was my first year playing golf I was never good enough to compete. I should go make sloppy joes for tomorrow. My coach did the math and figured that by having team members bring in food for lunch instead of buying packaged lunches, we'd save $400 and eat much better.

[Lubak10 0]

3-15-05

 

Yesterday was not fun! I had my first failure in the kitchen. I tried to make potato dumplings for German Food Day in International Issues and they were nasty! Usually I'm a pretty good cook so I'm not sure if it was a bad recipe or I just messed up. Anyway, I ended up going to the store and buying perogees so I wouldn't show up empty handed. They actually turned out to be quite a success. And at least I didn't make my grandmother do it. One of the guys in my group had his grandma get up at, like, 4 am to make the stuff he brought in. At least I attempted to make something myself.

 

We started to read the Bible in Comparative Religions. Since we're doing Judaism right now we're going to read all of Genesis and Exodus. I'm not looking forward to Exodus. I've read it before and after the Hebrews get away from the Egyptians all it is, is temple measurements and rituals for priests. BORING!!! I'm using my own Bible since it is the same translation as the one my teacher was handing out.

 

I love my CR teacher. She has this perfect balance so that the class is hard but we can still take a little time to talk about things like Ben and Jerry's and Gilmore Girls. She's so much fun. I don't always agree with her views on things but she's the kind of person who would rather have you disagree because you truly believe she's wrong then agree cause you want her to like you.

[Lubak10 0]

4-21-03

 

I went to my first real job today. A friend of mine works on a friend of the family's farm and they needed more workers so I had her give them my phone number. It means I have to quit the golf team for the rest of this year but everything else about the job is perfect. There's no work to do in June which is when I go to SpringHill for three weeks (as an unskilled teenage worker if I asked for three weeks off in any other job I'd get laughed out of the store) plus my friend, Elizabeth can drive me there. I don't have a car of my own so transportation is an issue. Right now we're picking asparagus. It's also nice working for a family instead of some big company that doesn't care about you at all. I should go finish my homework now.

[Odie 0]

Enjoy your time at Spring Hill.

[Lursa 0]

Doesn't it feel so good to have a job? Well, I wish you the best of luck with it.

[Kor37 9]

4-21-03

 

I went to my first real job today. A friend of mine works on a friend of the family's farm .There's no work to do in June which is when I go to SpringHill for three weeks (as an unskilled teenage worker if I asked for three weeks off in any other job I'd get laughed out of the store) plus my friend, Elizabeth can drive me there. I don't have a car of my own so transportation is an issue. Right now we're picking asparagus.

320264[/snapback]

 

 

Do yourself and your country a favor and report all of the illegal aliens working there. It would make sure you always have work in addition to helping your country out.

[Lursa 0]

I would love to here your defention of "helping our country out.

[Lubak10 0]

Thanks Lursa. It does feel nice to have a job and know that I'll have cash when I need it instead of having to ask my parents.

 

And Kor37, I live in Michigan so unless the immigrants are from Canada, there wont be any. And even if there were I'd have no way of knowing if they were illegal immigrants. It's not like they're gonna flaunt it.

[Odo 0]

Farm work is not easy back breaking musele hurting .

Been there did it .

Lu where in michigan?

[Lubak10 0]

Farm work is not easy back breaking musele  hurting .

Been there did it.

Lu  where in michigan?

320388[/snapback]

 

The work's not that bad right now. But once it gets to be the middle of July it will definetly get harder!

 

I live near Lansing, Odo, which is why I'm definetly not going to MSU for college. WAY to close to home.

[Kor37 9]

Farm work is not easy back breaking musele 

320388[/snapback]

 

 

I live near Lansing, Odo, which is why I'm definetly not going to MSU for college. WAY to close to home.

320495[/snapback]

 

 

You sound like my son. Hes going to go to the University of Maine.

[Lubak10 0]

4-23-05

 

Michigan weather is so incredibly strange! Last week it got up to 80 degrees and today it's snowing. How does something like that happen?

 

My sister and I went mothers day shopping this afternoon (mostly to avoid cleaning our rooms). I bought her a hand care kit with all kinds of creams and stuff, and Hannah bought her a book from the local Christian store that's all about moms and how cool they are. We also bought some cards for our grandmothers because we thought they would appreciate it.

 

I read a statistic today that said over 50% of people who say they are Christians don't pray or read their Bible daily. I realized, with shame, that I was one of them. From now on I'm going to make sure that I read at least three chapters a day and try to pray as often as I can. I bring a Bible to school since my Comparative Religions class is studying Judaism and we're reading Genesis and Exodus.

[Lubak10 0]

4-30-05

 

Not much has been going on lately. Well, there's been quite a bit of Angie drama, but when is that not happening. It's gotten to the point where I just don't like her anymore. But I don't know what to do because I don't want to just throw away 11 years of friendship. That's a long time, especially at my age. She's always making me feel like an idiot for saying something that's even a little bit odd. And she is so self absorbed. When we got our grades back for a project in British Lit she got a lower grade because she didn't do enough work. It wasn't a bad grade, just lower then it could have been. When this happened to me she just brushed it off saying it was no big deal. When it happens to her then it's an injustice that needs to be complained about for weeks. I know i should talk to her about this but that doesn't work. In the history of us knowing each other she has never once listened to me or admitted she was wrong. I just don't know what to do!

[Lubak10 0]

5-3-05

 

I realized something today. I've come to love John Paul II now more then I did when he was alive. Since I'm only 16 (almost 17 )he was the only Pope I'd ever known and whenever I heard a story about him traveling or doing something extraordinary I always thought that that was what he was supposed to do and that it was nothing special. Now that he's dead I've been reading articles everywhere about his life and the things he did and what an amazing man he was. I wish I'd known all this before he died (which I suppose is my fault) because now I miss him and knowing that I didn't appreciate him while he was alive makes me feels guilty. He was the head of my church and i was too self-absorbed to notice all the wonderful things he did. I certainly feel like a bum.

[Lursa 0]

I have to admit her was a very interesting person, but he was some against things that alot of people hated him for. But with every good person there is always a negative feedback lol.

[Lubak10 0]

5-7-05

 

Hehehehehehehehehehehe! I feel sneaky! Angie refused to burn me her two disk set of Rent b/c I bought the one disk set thinking that would satisfy me (it didn't. they left to many good songs off). So, I burned them myself while I was babysitting her little cousin at her house. Don't worry. The blank disks were ones I bought and I did it while RJ was watching a video. Now I have Rent (yippie!) and I got even though Angie didn't want me to have it. I wish I'd brought an extra disk cause I found Angie's copy of You're A Good Man Charlie Brown, and I want that one too.

 

RJ was fun to babysit. It's amazing what will entertain a three year old. We rolled a ball down the slide for about 20 minutes and he loved it! I can't wait till I have kids of my own (which I don't plan to do for another 10 years at least).

[Lubak10 0]

5-11-05

 

Angie said something today that really got on my nerves. She said that she doesn't like the idea of adoption. She said it during first hour and both me and John were taken aback by the comment. My first reaction was that I couldn't believe she would say something so horrible. In my eyes, she basically said that "we should leave kids in abusive homes or have them aborted instead of putting them with people who will care about them." Her reasoning was that she would hate to be adopted. Well, Duh! I would hate to be adopted at my age (or even a few years younger) too. But that would be because if I have to be adopted at 16 then the situation must be pretty bad all around. That doesn't mean we get rid of the whole adoption process. She also said that we shouldn't adopt children from other countries and take them away from their culture. *sarcastic voice on* Because everyone knows that leaving a kid in an orphanage where they are probably malnourished and undercared for and then tossed out on the street when they turn 18 totally is worth it *end sarcastic voice*. For a while I was wondering why this was bothering me so much. I think a big part of it is that I plan on being a Social Worker when I'm an adult, and if I decided to work with kids then I'll be taking kids out of abusive homes and getting them into better ones. She was in a way saying what I plan on doing for the rest of my life shouldn't be happening. Part of me thinks that she was just saying it to be controversial, and I really hope so.

[Lubak10 0]

5-12-05

 

Well, I made it into Chorale choir (which is the top choir in my school, and since we have one of the best programs in the state, that's saying something) but I feel really bad about it. Both Angie and Melissa didn't get in and they're crushed. Angie called when I was in the shower last night and my mom said that she sounded like she was near tears, and I spent most of first period sitting in the bathroom with Melissa while she cried. I don't know why, but it never occurred to me that this would happen. We've been best friends for a long time. We were always going to move together. Spend two years in treble choir ( eww!), one year in Concert, then be in Chorale our senior year. This is so weird. The worst part is that I don't want it as much as they do. If I hadn't made it into Chorale I would have been a bit disappointed but it wouldn't be a huge deal, yet I get in and they don't. They have been so awesome about this! Even when they're devastated that they didn't get in they said they were happy for me for making it. I feel like scum. They deserve it way more then I do.

[Lubak10 0]

5-24-05

 

I just got my summer assignments for AP literature. Most kids would be groaning about having Lit homework over the summer but me (being the geek I am) am jumping for joy getting REALLY excited about this class. It's going to be so much fun! You know why I think it will be fun? Because in this class we don't answer stupid questions like "what does the snow represent?" from the back of the book. We're going to read books, journal about what we read every night and then discuss what we've read. It's a book club that I get graded on! Finally I get to write about what I think about the book instead modeling my answers after someone's "expert" interpretation. FUN FUN!

Some of the books on the summer reading list:

Tess of the D'Urbervilles

Catcher in the Rye

The Grapes of Wrath

Slaughterhouse Five

The Picture of Dorian Gray

1984

Invisible Man

 

I'm so excited!

[Lubak10 0]

6-2-05

 

I'm pretty ticked off at my AP US History (APUSH) teacher. Today is the day he handed out books so we can do the summer homework. It was supposed to be an afterschool thing but since I ride the bus home I went to his classroom this morning. He said that the afterschool meeting was manditory and that I had to show up then. Not a huge deal. I would have to walk home but I've done that before and it's not anything major and I assumed that the info I would get would be worth it. So, I go after school and sit around for about 5 minutes while everyone gets their book and those who want to buy pay for it, and when that's done he says "that's it. You can go." blink.gif banghead.gif WHAT! Why couldn't you have done that this morning! I ran outside to see if my bus hadn't left yet but no such luck. I ended up taking the 45 minute walk home for nothing. It's not a horrible fate but it ticked me off. It was nice to get out and walk but the insanely heavy backpack made things much more unpleasent. I suppose I do the same thing for golf but at least I get to play a game in that situation.

 

My mind is already in summer break mode, which is really bad because I've got finals next week. Luckly, this semester I only have 3 finals and I've heard that 2 off them are pretty easy. That's probably a big cause of my current condition. I have GOT to work on my portfolio today and tomorrow or I'm gonna be working all weekend.

[Lubak10 0]

6-3-05

 

I should be writing my essay for Brit Lit but I've having major writer's block. I can't seem to figure out how to start the essay. I know what I want in the middle, I just can't get it started. I'm really trying to keep myself from getting too stressed out! It's really easy for me to get myself worked up and stressed out way more then I need to be and I usually end up crashing and burning as a result. That CAN'T happen! This is my last chance to bump up my GPA before I have to send the number to colleges. I think I'm at about a 3.2 as of last semester. I can't let it go any lower then that and I'm hoping that I can get it higher. Please pray for me. At this point I need all the help I can get. I can't wait till I get to SpringHill and can relax and have fun and praise the Lord 24 hours a day for 3 weeks! I'm so excited.

[Lubak10 0]

6-11-05

 

I'm so excited! In a little over 24 hours I'll be at SpringHill for the next three weeks! *does happy dance* I'm partially packed right now and I'm doing laundry to get the rest clean. I'm so excited I can barely contain myself. I wont have any access to a computer (cause what's the point of going to camp then spending the entire time in front of the computer) so I wont be able to update till I get home.

 

I've got Jessi's open house tonight. I'm so glad that I get to see her before I go. It's weird not seeing and talking to her everyday. I'll probably miss her, but then again, I'll be having so much fun that I wouldn't be surprised if I forgot that the rest of the world existed at all. I'm so excited!

[Lubak10 0]

6-12-05

 

I've been back from camp for almost two weeks but I've just been to lazy to post before now, cause I'm on vacation!

So last night I was trying to print something, but my printer wasn't printing. It took me two hours to fix the stupid thing! One of those hours was spent with a guy from HP telling me to do all kinds of stuff. About 1/2 hour into this I didn't even want what I was going to print anymore but I couldn't just leave it plus I knew that if I left I would have to go through the whole procedure again, and that was something I definitely didn't want.

I want to invite Al down for my B-day and hopefully I'll get to visit some SpringHill people that live around her area. I miss them all so much! I got closer to people in this group then I've ever been to anybody before. I was in a Coed group but it was nice because nobody was there to find a boyfriend or girlfriend. We all just had fun together.

[Lubak10 0]

1 is the number they are in my heart

2 months until they hit the charts

3 times they've taken my breath away

4 members in the band today

5 is the number of friends i've told

X 6 is the number of friends they've told

but 7 is the most important of all... because 7 is glory... seven glory seven glory seven glory...

Fred you are always in my head,

and Gabe you are such a babe,

Kaleb i'd climb a mountain for you,

and Josh, OH MY GOSH! SEVEN GLORY

 

Best moments:

* When the curtains broke (during our "naked" party)

* The guys doing the YMCA

* Rachel's imitation of Superman (which resulted in a fractured toe)

* Karl coming back from the Hospital (on steroids)

* The pregnancy tests (for $1)

* Nick finding out about them (the pregnant Hooomooosexuals)

* NOOMA

*DEUCE

[Lubak10 0]

7-14-05

 

Things have gotten to the point where I'm actually wanting school to start just so I can feel productive again. This hanging around the house stuff is kinda relaxing, but I feel like I'm wasting my time. If I had a car and my friends who live near me were actually around some of the time, things might be better. It's not that I'm bored, I just think i could be spending my time better.

 

Tomorrow morning I've going to visit Ferris State University. Everyone is expecting me to be nervous, but I don't understand why. They're the ones trying to impress me, not the other way around. I shouldn't act like an idiot, but i don't normally do that so, there's not a problem. My cousin, Kyle goes to Ferris and when I mentioned that I was considering it he said "You should go, it'll be fun," which completely shocked me. I thought at best he would be indifferent to the idea, never did I think he would support it. We would probably never see each other since I'm going into social work and he's in a program that has something to do with engines (I'm not really sure what it is).

[Lubak10 0]

I'm so miserable! I miss SpringHill and CoCo A more then I have ever missed anyone or anything before. I hate myself for the fact that it took only days for me to fall back into my old ways when I was determined to change. When I get the letter I wrote to myself later this year I don't want to be in the same place I was when I got my last letter. I want to talk to someone from CoCo A about this but every time I think of calling the devil gets into my head and tells me that they don't want to talk to me, especially if it's about the junk in my life. I know I should talk to God about this but I feel like there is this wall between us and I don't know how to take it down. I feel like I just want to break down and cry because I'm so sad and so scared! I feel like I'm completely alone. I would give almost anything to be back at SpringHill right now.

[Lubak10 0]

*starts doing happy dance and singing* Its my Birrrrrrrthday! It's my birrrrrrrrrrthday! It's my birrrrrrrrthday! *end singing* I'm so excited about seeing Al! I haven't seen her in about 8 months and i get to spend all weekend with her! I'm so hyper! But that's probably more because of the two shots of espresso I just had rather then excitement.

[Ace 0]

Happy Birthday, Lubak!!!