cptwright 1 Posted April 12, 2005 thanks everyone. life goes on, now im not even sure that she did it. when i asked her when she was sober if she really did it, she wouldnt answer. well if not, then when i get some money i just gotta do it. i sure cant keep putting up with that. well back to work tomorrow for the long stretch, love the five day breaks, but i spend way too much money when i get bored. lol. night all. thanks again PEACE Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
cptwright 1 Posted May 12, 2005 Hello all, well i just had a really bad day, and i just guess i had to put it down somewhere. today i had to put my best friend to sleep. i had talon for almost 13 years now, it was about the hardest thing i ever had to do, but it was the right thing for him. hard to beleive he is gone now, he was MY KID, part of the family. he had such character, i can never find another one like him. well i guess thats all for now. LATTA PEACE Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Kor37 9 Posted May 12, 2005 So sorry to hear that. Having to put a pet to sleep after having it for 13 years is just like losing a member of the family. I went through that a long time ago. We had a dog who lived to be 13 and we had to put her to sleep. I was so distressed, I never got another pet again. Not to say you shouldn't, that was just me. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
cptwright 1 Posted May 23, 2005 thanks kor37. i miss my mutt, but i know i did the right thing. well anyway heres a new entry in the chronicles of my life. lol. well here goes. Click For Spoiler 05-23-05Well tonight I think I had an epiphany, it came to me from a line in a movie, this is not an exact quote, but it was like this, YOU DON’T FACE YOUR DEMONS, AND DEFEAT THEM, YOU FACE THEM EVERY DAY AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN. Something like that, I know its kinda corny but hearing that made me think, and think some more. It is so so so true, at least for me, I face demons every day, with a little break here and there. I have my moments of true clarity, moments of agonal misery, fleeting moments of happiness, and last, just being. When I think ive solved a problem in my life, even when I have, somehow it seems to come back to haunt me again. Lately ive come to realize that I don’t have a great problem with women, I apparently can do alright in that dept, I just have a set thing in my mind that I want, and it holds me back. I guess just another demon. I met someone online, and she seems great, she’s all about me that’s for sure, and from what ive gotten to know about her from our many long talks I can be all about her that’s for sure, but for the kicker, she lives 1500 miles away, always something. She’s coming to visit at the end of June, and I cant wait, but I have a problem, I just don’t know that I can do this long distance thing for as long as it would have to be before any chance of her moving here, then I think, what if she moves here, and its all just nothing like either of us thought. that’s a big deal having someone move their lives 1500 miles for someone based mostly on phone calls, and emails. So my new demon naws at me now, what do I do? Do I just go where life takes me, and hope that no one gets hurt, too bad anyway, or do I take a proactive approach and dive head first into the relationship, or vise versa, continue my search locally? And by go with the flow I mean just see what happens either something with me and her, or me and someone else. (no theres no one in mind). I had a pretty good weekend this five day, (that’s my five day break every three weeks for those who might read this). Went to busch gardens with some guys from work, it was a time, I hope to do more stuff like that with co-workers, it was a beautiful weekend, got to see a buddy from back home, he came down to pick up a car he bought on e-bay. Went out for a while last night, all in all a good weekend, then suddenly I feel somber again. Damn them demons. But alas a moment of clarity and an epiphany a good weekend make. I still love my job, know that im on the right track with my life, and much happier than I was before I moved here, so all in all, all is good, just need to keep fighting I guess. With each inner battle though comes more peace within, if that makes sense, I guess that after each bout I come out with new knowledge, a new weapon against my sadness as it may be. So I guess what I mean to say is that I come out with more of a smile, that lasts longer each time. Make sense? Well I guess that’s enough for the entry, till next time life leads me somewhere, wherever. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
cptwright 1 Posted July 22, 2005 well everybody, hows life? damn im lovin life here. almost done with my emt e class then im all done and with all my classes for the fire dept. except optional ones i take. i finally found a wonderful, great,, oh my god sweet woman. im movin in with her at the end of the month. life has just finally turned around for the best for me. i could die tomorrow and be a happy man. well i just thought i would pop in and say hey, and see how yall doin. latta PEACE Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Ace 0 Posted July 22, 2005 Great to hear from you, Cap'n! Glad life's going well for you and that things have turned around. Good luck with everything and be sure to keep us updated when you have a chance. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Kor37 9 Posted July 22, 2005 Long time no see Cpt. Glad to see you are doing well. Don't be such a stranger here. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
cptwright 1 Posted July 28, 2005 hello again, just thought id say hey. i wont have much internet for a while. moving some stuff today, should be all moved out this weekend. be done with my test saturday and back to the station on monday. well talk to you all later, hope all is well with ya'll. PEACE Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
cptwright 1 Posted September 24, 2005 well hey everybody whats up? been a while, but now i have internet again at home. i gotta say i never thought life could be this good. i love my life now. between my job, and the love of my life im now livin with i couldnt ask for more. things have been great at the station, goin to a new station next day, which is pretty cool, gonna miss the old one, and the guys there, but the new one im going to is pretty cool, and they wanted me, so its always cool to be chosen from a list of people. life at home is great too. maria is the best, she makes me happier than i have ever been. our birthdays r next month, two days apart, im gonna propose to her on her birthday. i know she'll say yes, after all we've already talked about getting married, and kids and everything. she is everything i have ever dreamed of in a woman, AND MORE. i never thought i would find her, and low and behold i meet her at my aunts house. how funny is that. so hows things with everyone? whatcha all been upto? so i guess ill be around a little more often now. so talk to you all latta. PEACE Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Kor37 9 Posted September 24, 2005 Glad to see that everything has worked out so well for you! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Bethlehem 7 Posted September 24, 2005 Thanks cptwright, hearing someone so happy also makes me a happier person!! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
cptwright 1 Posted September 29, 2005 well im glad that i can add a little smile to someones day. went to the va state fair monday that was great. i have the best time doin simple things anymore, i love it. i finally have quite a bit of peace in my life now. still have some problems, mostly that i cant get the ex to sign the divorce papers still. so ill have to shell out some more money to the lawyers to do it the hard way. oh well, im still happy as anything. had a good day yesterday at my new station. i love my new assignment. well its late, 5am comes early, gotta work tomorrow, or today i guess. lol. well latta. PEACE Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
cptwright 1 Posted November 1, 2005 hey everybody hows it goin? things are great here, just had a birthday as did my fiance, we got a hotel on the beach for a few days for both our birthdays, on her birthday i took her to a nice dinner then we went out on the beach and i proposed to her. were getting married next oct 24th right in the middle of our birthdays on the 23rd and the 25th. things are great couldnt ask for any more than i have. i love my job and i found my soul mate. what more is there? so whatcha all been upto? just thought i would stop in and say hey, and update those of you who know me on my new life. moving to VA was the best thing i ever did, that is after divorcing the anti christ then moving lol. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Kor37 9 Posted November 1, 2005 :( I'm happy that everything is working out for you. Congrats on the upcoming marriage! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Lursa 0 Posted November 9, 2005 I am happy for you. I hope that in time that i find the person that makes me happy as well. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
cptwright 1 Posted November 25, 2005 happy thanksgiving everyone. hope it was a great day for all. had the future in laws here today. was a good day. we found the place were getting married. its beautiful. cant wait. going to ny next month to see family, and introduce the furture mrs to the family. i dont miss ny but i do miss the people, and family. life is sooooo different now than it ever was. sometimes its hard to beleive that i lived a different life than i am now. i love things soooooo much more now than i ever thought possible. life aint perfect, but its so much closer than i ever thought posible. thats such a great feeling. well hope ur all doin well. latta PEACE Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
cptwright 1 Posted March 18, 2006 well damn, been a long time since i posted here. well to all that i know hello and how ya doin? to everyone, happy st pattys day. the one day a year were all irish. well i suppose i have a few things to say, but im tired tonight, and gotta work in the morning. well say hey, and ill speak my mind latta. peace Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
cptwright 1 Posted October 14, 2006 hello strangers. lol. just thought id pop in and say hey. hows life for everyone? good i hope. well a lots happened since my last post. im getting married in a week and a half, we just bought a house in aug. my sister had a baby. my job is still THE BEST JOB IN THE WORLD! cant really complain bout a thing. not that it would do any good. lol well talk to ya'll latta. PEACE Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Kor37 9 Posted October 14, 2006 Ya know,cpt.......you really need to get a more positive outlook on life...... :) Seriously, though, I'm glad everything is going good for you. Don't be such a stranger in here! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Validus 0 Posted October 16, 2006 hello strangers. lol. just thought id pop in and say hey. hows life for everyone? good i hope. well a lots happened since my last post. im getting married in a week and a half, we just bought a house in aug. my sister had a baby. my job is still THE BEST JOB IN THE WORLD! cant really complain bout a thing. not that it would do any good. lol well talk to ya'll latta. PEACE Well- I don't think we've ever met, but I'm Validus. I live in California with my current girlfriend and so far I'm alright except for not having a job...but I think that will change fairly soon. I'm addicted to Battlestar Galactica (the new one on the sci-fi channel) and I enjoy posting here...mostly in 20th century and Off-topic. See you around. :) Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
cptwright 1 Posted December 1, 2006 thanks kor and hello valadious. hows things everyone? well married life is here again. good with the bad as always lol. just checking my email something i dont do often and thought i would pop in and say hey. the wedding went great had beautiful weather for the weekend that the faimly was here. but of course on the day of it was beautiful but very very windy. but it was great anyway. the beach house we rented and got married at was awsome. only thing is now i really really want a house on the beach. but alas a firefighters pay will never buy that. lol. the move to virginia was a great one for me, the only thing that sucks is i miss my family and friends back home. i worked thanksgiving and had no dinner with family this year. they had dinner at my uncles. but alas he dont talk to me anymore, for over a year now since i moved out and got on with my life he stopped liking me. oh well. but things are still great, cant have every thing i guess. well gonna get goin. gotta get some sleep for work tomorrow. hope alls well with ya'll. have a good one. MATT PEACE. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Kor37 9 Posted December 1, 2006 Congrats on your wedding, Cpt. Now don't wait til your first anniversary to post in here again... Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
cptwright 1 Posted December 3, 2006 thanks kor, and hey this is before my first anniversary. lol. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites