Lubak10's Log

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Thanks Ace!

 

I'm soooooooooo excited right now! I ordered a four disk set of music from sci-fi movies and TV shows and it came today! Right now I'm listening to music from Lifeforce but it also has stuff from Star Trek, Star Wars, Enemy Mine, Apollo 13, Alien, Close Encounters of the Third Kind, Dune (the movie not the mini-series), StarGate, and bunches of others! The music is phenomenal! I know it's going to be all I listen to for the next few weeks. It will take a while to get sick of four disks.

[Lursa 0]

That is cool. I own a lot of sci-fi movies. But most of my DVD boxed sets are from retro tv! lol.

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I need to calm down! Yesterday I went to this site that lists hundreds of scholarships and essay contests that most people don't know about and me being the person I am I feel like I have to apply for every one of them. Plus this is serves as a good reminder that I need to work really hard this next year so I'll pass my AP exams and get college credit, then there is figuring out where I want to go to college which is going to be a very hard decision. Then there is the whole paying for college thing which brought me back to feeling like I need to apply for every scholarship out there. If you all could please pray for me that I'll get through this proses without having a breakdown, I'd appreciate it.

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We just went through this with my son. Absolutely EVERYTHING depends on your SAT score. Apparently, nothing else matters. I would suggest that you take the SAT test as many times as possible to get the highest possible score.

[Ace 0]

I've actually heard that the ACT carries a bit more weight than the SAT, but I could be wrong. That's just the score my univerisity focused on even though I scored higher on the SAT (Besides, they use conversion charts between the two exams). Since I took both, I didn't really pay much attention to that. Either way, most universities do look at more than just test scores. :)

 

 

Lubak, I am sure you're going to get through everything just fine. I know it's difficult, but try not to stress out too much.

 

I can't know whether you'd qualify or not, but definitely have your parents or whomever look into what Financial Aid might give you. Maybe find out if there are any local scholarships available to you. For example, I got a thousand from my local electric co-op. Do the employers of any of your relatives give out scholarships of some kind? I don't know enough about your situation to give more specific suggestions, but there are almost always a wide array of scholarships available.

 

You definitely have my prayers, Lubak. :)

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Thanks guys! I know I'm overly freaking out like I always do but it helps to write it down and then get confirmation from others that I'm freaking out too much. :biggrin:

 

I am sooooooooooo jealous of my Dad! He went to the Buick Open with one of his friends and he was less then 10 feet away from Vijay Singh (who is my favorite player)! He says he'll probably take me next year as a graduation present.

Today was not one of my better days cause I found out that I have to have oral surgery on Tuesday. Ewwww! My wisdom teeth need to come out but I consider myself lucky. I only need three teeth pulled. My aunt is a dentist and she had a kid last week who needed six taken out! How horrible is that! Plus I get to spend a day or two on the couch watching old sci-fi movies while I recover. Prayers for a speedy recover would be appreciated.

I started a book for AP Lit called Brave New World and even though I'm only 10 pages in I know I'm gonna love it cause the first scene took place in a human cloning factory. How cool is that! Well, sort of. I don't actually want humans to be cloned but books that deal with it are usually pretty cool. Did you know CS Lewis wrote a sci-fi series? I was browsing at the bookstore, saw his name in the sci-fi section and nearly flipped out with excitement. I'll cry if my local library doesn't have the first book since I have no money to buy it with.

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So, yesterday I was at SpringHill dropping off my lil sis. This is her first year in New Frontiers and I'm really excited for her. It was nice to be at SpringHill even if it was only for an hour or so, but leaving was hard cause I wanted to stay so badly! I did get to see Marty though! He's a counselor for New Fro TSTs this week so he was working the luggage tents. We got to talk for a little bit toward the end when things weren't so busy. I hope I get to see Lori and/or Maggie and/or Nick when I go to pick up Hannah. She's probably having a blast right now. I can't wait till I'm a counselor and can stay all summer. I also might get to do the mother-daughter retreat this fall witch will be awesome! I love that place so much!

[Lursa 0]

That is cool. But overall, my school gave me alot of hell in the first place. Being a female, you always have to fight harder. Keep your grades up also. Like if you suck at both you ACT and SAT then they look at your grade and they might give you a good chance. That is how i got into college!

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This pulling teeth thing sucks! The actual procedure wasn't that bad but afterwards is horrible! My bottom lip is still numb, my jaw is killing me, I've got 5 pounds of gauze in my mouth to soak up the blood till it clots, and the left side of my face is red from the ice pack that's been against it for the past hour. I suppose I should consider myself lucky though. I only had one tooth on my bottom jaw and those teeth are the ones that cause all the swelling and pain, and I'll be much more comfortable when I can take the gauze out. Plus I've got my nice pills to help with the pain and make me happy.

[Ace 0]

But overall it's not that bad though, right? I'm getting all 4 of my wisdom teeth out this Friday. Let's just say... I'm not looking forward to it.

[Lubak10 0]

The first night isn't much fun but it gets better fast. It just helped to complain about it. The actual procedure is actually kind of nice. When I woke up I felt more relaxed then I can ever remember being because of the laughing gas. One suggestion for you is to eat lots of pineapple beforehand. My aunt told me to, for two days before the surgery, eat a pineapple a day cause one of the enzymes in it helps with the swelling, and it really does work. Like I said, the period right after the teeth are pulled aren't fun, but right now the only thing that's bad is I've still got gauze in my mouth cause I talked too much and the bleeding didn't stop, but that's more an annoyance then anything else. I hope your's goes well. Make sure you've got lots of pudding, yogurt, applesauce, etc around and lots of movies. The medicine that takes away the pain also makes it so you can't do much of anything except sit on the couch or in front of the computer. Oh! and have Ginger Ale in case you get a bit nauseous. I'll keep you in my prayers.

[Ace 0]

Thanks for the tips and prayers . I appreciate it. I think I'll go see if we have any pineapple in the house now.

 

Have a good week.

[Lubak10 0]

I've got to keep Thor inside today because it's raining and he is driving me insane! His most resent "get on peoples nerves" activity is to eat the corners off of the boxes in the den. Part of me hopes it rains today cause I love to listen and watch the rain, but another part know that's I'll go completely nuts if Thor doesn't get some sort of entertainment. *squeals from surprise as Thor starts to lick her feet*

I can't believe SpringHill doesn't have an email address. I thought every organization had an email address these days. I guess I'll have to call them and hope that I will get things settled quickly so I don't have to talk too much. My grandparents are going with me to pick Hannah up tomorrow and they want a tour of the camp. Since me and Hannah have been going to the camp for four years now we can show them around, but since my grandparents are both over 60 I'm hoping we can get a golf cart or something because they can't walk the whole way. I hear thunder so I'm gonna stop here and shut down the computer.

[Lursa 0]

Lighting is cool, as along as youre not wearing metal clothing lol.

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My mouth is still hurting which is making me think something might be wrong because I don't think it should hurt this bad for this long. I'm going for a follow up visit tomorrow so I'm not going to worry about it too much.

Things are so weird right now. I'll have a perfectly wonderful day and at the end I feel like I want to burst into tears. I don't know if it's just my body needing to cry for crying's sake or if it's something deeper. I'm thinking it's something deeper because lately I've completely turned my back on God and started doing things that I haven't done since I accepted Jesus into my heart. I'm not going to say what because, frankly, I'm embarrassed. I feel like there's a wall between me and God and I know that I'm the one who built the wall and it's only on my side, but there's a part of me that doesn't want to break it down even though my life is getting more and more miserable with it up. I know all I have to do is reach out but for some reason I keep holding back.

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I'm soooooooooooo excited! One of the guys who TSTed with me earlier this summer is having a reunion party at his house. Originally it was supposed to be this Friday which bummed me out because I couldn't go, but he moved it to next Friday! Now all I have to do is get my parents to let me go. It's a sleepover in his backyard and that's gonna put up all kinds of warning signals in their minds. I hope and pray they'll let me go!

I can finally eat normally. My mouth is a little sore every once and a while, but nothing too bad.

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My computer's start-up is so insanely slow! I turned it on, went and bugged my mom, bugged my sister, petted the cat, got a glass of tea, and when I came back it still hadn't fully started up. That's insane!

I guess there's really not a whole lot to talk about right now. I'm still struggling with taking down the wall between me and God and I know that all I have to do is reach out and say I'm sorry but something keeps holding me back. Everytime I try to pray or read the Bible I feel like I have no right to be doing that because I'm too dirty from sin. Maybe if I go to confession on Saturday it will help. I know I don't technically need to confess my sins to a priest for them to be forgiven, but I feel a lot more forgiven when I go to confession then when I just say I'm sorry. I think that's why confession was created in the first place. Not because it's the only way to be forgiven, but because it helps you out psychologically. I guess I had more to talk about then I thought I did.

[Lursa 0]

We all make mistakes in our lives, some of them I have done so bad that i thought i would be going to hell. Now I am working on making myself a better person and god will always love you for who and what you are.

[Ace 0]

You're in my prayers, Lubak.

:lol:

[Lubak10 0]

Thank you both for the advice and prayers! I really do apprecate it!

 

I finally got my room clean! It's needed it badly since before I went to SpringHill and my mom let me know that by the time she got home today it needed to be clean. Since the wrath of mom is something i really don't like enduring i figured i should start cleaning. I gave myself 4 hours to do it and only used two of them (with a 40 minute break in there). I though for sure it would take much longer then that. Oh well. I'm not complaining. Now I've got to start on my homework. Eww! I've only got 12 days till school starts and still a bunch left to do. *sigh* At least the book for AP Lit is really good.

[Lursa 0]

school,school, is a pain in the butt, my only hope is that I don't get too much homework.

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I visited Grand Vally State University on Friday and loved it! The campus was beautiful, more beautiful on a gloomy day then all the others were on a perfect day. It's got some good programs too but I'll bore you if I go into all that. I'm still not sure if that's where I want to go, but it's a definite possibility. I'd be about 20 minutes away from my aunt and uncle but since I wont have a car the distance will be enough for me to be on my own.

Not much else going on. Just lots of applications to fill out.

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Today is a really good day. First, i wake up and get to make myself a cappuccino because my dad finally bought a new one. To give you an idea of how much of a coffee freak i am, after i made it i looked at it and said "I've missed you."

Then i go to registration for school and get all excited about my senior year. I got a tassel at registration and a catalog of class rings and open house invitations and all that cool stuff.

But the absolute best part is the excitement of knowing that tomorrow i get to go to Chase's house and see my SpringHill buddies! I miss them so much! And I got to talk to Sarah for about 30 minutes on the phone. I might be going to the party with her and her group if there's room, but there probably wont be so I'm trying to arrange other transportation. I'm so excited!

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I am in such a good mood! First off, I had a great time at the reunion once I got over the anxiety of getting there. We were up till about 3 am hanging out and it was such a blast! Then we went to the mall the next day which was fun but it would have been better if I had money and more sleep, but I still loved it. I LOVE COCO A!!!!!!!!

Me, my mom, and my sister went shopping for back to school clothes and senior picture clothes for me and the devil tried to bring me down so many times but I didn't let him! Part of it was that I finally accepted that I don't fit into the sizes that I want to (plus even if I do loose weight the numbers wont be as low as I want them to be because the clothes are all cut for super skinny girls) and once I got past that it was much easier to find clothes that I looked good in. even after that I started to look at myself too harshly but I always came back to my senses and told the devil that I wasn't going to listen to him so he might as well go away. i ended up getting some great looking stuff and am much more excited about senior pics in September.

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I have so much homework!!!!!!!!! I thought I had two or three days after school started to finish my APUSH homework, but it turns out that it all has to be done by the first day of school or you get dropped from the class. Oops! So, basically I'm scrambling to get my work done as efficiently as possible. The words in my book were starting to blur together so I figured it was time for a lunch break. This wouldn't be a horribly big deal accept for the fact that I have an attention span of a goldfish so this is going to take a long time. I'll probably end up doing homework while I get my highlights re-done tomorrow. I'll be shocked if I don't get it done, I just have to have enough discipline to sit myself down for a few hours to finish this.

[Lursa 0]

It's that kind of pressure that kills so many teens and college students everyday. Just do what you can and you will be fine.

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I am going to have a sweet senior year! I love all my classes. I love all my teachers. All of my friends who go to my school have the same lunch as me. It's perfect! When the last bell rings I don't want to go home. I wish I had another class. I probably wont be feeling like this in a few weeks but I'm going to take it in while I can.

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While I was in church today something the priest said made me think. Actually, it wasn't what he said but how he said it. He was talking about Christians being persecuted back in Paul's time and in todays world. He said that back then "the Romans would arrest people for being Christian, imprison them, torture them, even kill them." When he said even kill them, I started to think, would death be the worst option in this situation. He placed the emphasis to make it sound like it was, but i would think torture would be the worst. Death would mean we get to know peace and be with Jesus. That sounds much better then torture. The conclusion I came up with was that it was the natural human tendency to view death as the worst penalty possible, and if you're not going to heaven i suppose it is.

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(A different perspective)

 

One day a father of a very wealthy family took his son on a trip to the country with the firm purpose of showing his son how >poor people live.

 

They spent a couple of days and nights on the farm of what would be considered a very poor family. ! On their return from their trip, the father asked his son, "How was the trip?"

 

 

"It was great, Dad."

 

 

"Did you see how poor people live?" the father asked.

 

 

"Oh yeah," said the son.

 

 

"So, tell me, what did you learn from the trip?" asked the father.

 

The son answered: "I saw that we have one dog and they had four.

 

We have a pool that reaches to the middle of our garden and they have a creek that has no end.

 

We have imported lanterns in our garden and they have the stars at night.

 

Our patio reaches to the front yard and they have the whole horizon.

 

We have a small piece of land to live on and they have fields that go beyond our sight.

 

We have servants who serve us, but they serve others.

 

We buy our food, but they grow theirs.

 

We have walls around our property to protect us, they have friends to protect them."

 

The boy's father was speechless.

 

Then his son added, "Thanks, Dad, for showing me how poor we are."

 

Isn't perspective a wonderful thing? Makes you wonder what would happen if we all gave thanks for everything we have, instead of worrying about what we don't have. Appreciate every single thing you have, especially your friends!

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I have gone through a major change because of my three weeks at SpringHill. When I first got there I was determined not to be the quiet shy one who hides in the corner and no one gets to know, so I made a decision to be more out-going. It was one of the hardest things I've done but I was able to do it (the people I was with get a lot of credit for this. if they had been mean and nasty then I probably would have shut up even tighter then before. Kudos to you guys!) and as a result I've been way more outgoing this year then I ever have before. My small group in AP lit needed to choose a presenter to talk about the book we read and almost everyone said "not me" which would have been my natural inclination but this time I volunteered to do it and even volunteered to go first. I'm actually excited about another presentation that I have in that class later this week. That's never happened before. The best part is I'm no longer stagnant. Even though I have a newfound confidence it's still hard to open up which means that I'm moving beyond my comfort zone. Yippee for me!