Kyra_Ashleigh's Personal Log...

[Kor37 9]

Wow. Your life certainly seems to be in an upheaval lately. Good luck with all of your plans.

[Kyra_Ashleigh 0]

I had a nice weekend out of town! It was sure nice to be able to get out of the house I live in for a few days and get away from the stuff that's going on here.

 

My grandfather is mad at me for cutting off his sleeping pill supply. The man was taking them constantly and basically sleeping his life away. I can't deal well with that sort of thing, my mom had a problem with pills for a while when I was growing up. So I took away his pills and left town for a few days. He chewed me out about it as soon as I got home this evening, it was really upsetting and I lost my temper and told him he can't go around treating people with such disrespect (cursing at them all the time, etc). I feel like I'm stuck parenting him all of a sudden and it's hard to deal with since he practically raised me.

 

My uncle is going to be here Thursday to hopefully help me deal with the situation with grandpa. My poor uncle has to come all the way from California because things have gone so downhill. There's no way that my grandpa should be on his own in his condition and the way he acts, sometimes I suspect he's got alzeimers coming on. He hasn't been evaluated for it, but I'm going to call his doctor tomarrow and suggest it.

 

It's a pretty tough thing, all said. I live with my grandpa, but his behaviour has left me with less than three hours of sleep since he was in the hospital last. He can't do anything for himself and the 24-hour caregivers are bankrupting him. If things go badly, I'll no longer have a place to live, but that's actually preferable to me than trying to deal with living here.

 

Anyway, my weekend was nice. My daughter and I had a blast up at the lake and I'm so sunburned right now, I could cry!

 

"L" and his friends went camping and river rafting over the weekend. I thought they were going somewhere near Vancouver, but when I saw him before he left, he told me he was going to be about two towns over from our lake house! :P

 

So, I didn't think too much of it and had a great weekend. I used up 167 pictures on my digital camera card, mostly pictures of my daughter trying to climb the fence between the yard and the lake!

 

Anyway, I was driving home today and I ran into "L" on the highway (not literally). I noticed that there was a truck like his behind me and didn't think anything of it... until it pulled up waaaay close to the back of my car, then pulled into the right lane, pulled up next to me and "L" was waving like a crazy man! B)

 

He got in front of me and it turned out he was going home the same way I was. So, all of a sudden, he sticks his arm out of the window and gestures for me to pull over. So I get out of the car and he invites me and my daughter to have lunch with him and his son. We had a nice lunch and went our seperate ways.

 

It was just to weird though. I've never once in my life seen anyone I know on that highway... and I've been going there since I was a kid! It's like fate has a twisted sense of humor or something.

 

Anyway, I've decided to move into the basement for the rest of my time living with grandpa. I just can't take the heat in the house and my grandpa likes it at about 90 degrees! At least down here I can open the door and get some air.

 

Well, wish me luck with my uncle coming out. Hopefully we'll be able to get things figured out in a positive manner. I fear he'll somehow blame me for the way my grandpa's been acting even though it's not within my control. In fact, I know my grandpa is going to tell him that I'm being evil and taking away his medications and stuff, but this sleeping pill thing just isn't going to fly. I'm not dealing with another addict in my life.

 

Time to try and go to bed early. If I don't I probably won't even get my three hours since apparently my grandpa has had total insomnia as a withdrawal symptom from the sleeping pills. I'd give in and let him have one, but in reality, if I give him one tonight, it'll be two tomarrow and three the next day, so I have to be tough. I wish for once I wasn't looked upon to be the "tough" one of the family. :blink:

[Kor37 9]

It certainly sounds like the early stages of alzheimers. My grandmother lived with us and she had alzheimers for the last 5 years of her life.

I'm pretty familiar with it. The first stage of alzheimers is when they get nasty. They accuse you of all sorts of ridiculous things like stealing their money and so forth. After that comes the memory loss and insomnia. I feel for you. Its very tough to deal with.

[Kyra_Ashleigh 0]

Just taking a quick few minutes to update my log. My uncle is in town until Thursday morning and we're trying to get as much done as we can while he's here.

 

It looks like we may have found a good live-in caregiver for my grandpa! Hopefully w'll hear from her Monday to start solidifying the plans. If she does decide to come up here from California to live with my grandpa, it will be a huge blessing. We're using caregivers from an agency right now and they're good, but it's a different person twice a day and it's hard to keep up with who's who. If we had one live-in, my grandpa could go enjoy his lake house this summer, which would be a wonderful thing for all of us, since if we don't find a way to let him go, he's going to be unbearable.

 

I need to go to the grocery store and I'm putting it off. I hate grocery shopping!

 

Other than that, things are about the same. I spent a few hours visiting "L" on Friday night. As usual, I had been planning to do something else, and then he called me while I was on my way to the club I was going to. One of these days, I'll have to tell him that I'm not going to stop by and say hi on my way to wherever I'm going to. We'll get to talking for hours and then I'll miss out on whatever I was planning to do. It happens almost every weekend!

 

At least he's not asking me to clean his house anymore. The most he's asked lately is for me to bring him something to eat once or twice. It's a decent trade-off really, he doesn't want to cook, so I bring him a snack and he lets me drink his "special" beers.

 

Do all guys have a few six-packs of really good beer hidden away for special occasions, or is "L" weird? I'm pretty flattered that he will share his stash of good beer with me... I've never had a guy offer to share his good beer with me before!

[Kyra_Ashleigh 0]

We've hired a caregiver for my grandpa!

 

She's moving here from California to take care of him (she's a family friend and a professional caregiver in CA right now). So she's likely to arrive on July 2nd, unless she decides to come sooner.

 

My uncle goes home tomarrow morning and has to go straight to work from the airport. He's going to be soooo tired!

 

But it's nice to know we got a good deal of family business taken care of. I'm so relieved. B)

 

Work is very busy. I got sent to the other store yesterday to learn how to do the cash-out over there. I guess the owner had forgotten that I was fully capable of doing the cash-out at all three of his stores!

 

I'm not exactly sure what I have going on for the weekend. My daughter and I will be going to the lake from Saturday afternoon to Monday morning. I have to work Saturday. I'm debating on whether I want to try and go out Friday night or not. it's almost becoming a waste of time for me to get all ready to go out and then have my plans change halfway to wherever I'm going.

 

I have a bunch of stuff I had planned to give "L" when I see him next. I guess it'll be up to him when that is, I've been playing phone tag with him all night. I can't just give him gifts at work... it would be a "conflict of interest" for me to be giving gifts to one of the delivery men.

 

Well, might as well try to get to bed at a decent time for once. I've gotten to be a night person again the past few weeks and it's messing with my job schedule.

[Kyra_Ashleigh 0]

It's Friday!

 

Friday basically means that I get to wear my "casual" clothes to work tomarrow. I'm pondering making a bit of a drive south to go to a concert tonight. Where I end up is anybody's guess!

 

My grandfather had an endoscopy done today because the doctors were concerned he might have a tumor in his esopagus. It turned out to be scar tissue from him not taking his acid reflux meds for years, but it's a weight off our minds that it's not cancerous! :)

 

Right now I'm finishing up making some CD's for a friend.

 

Well, I need to get a shower and go out and play!

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It's Sunday and I'm posting from my laptop. My daughter and I are spending a day or so up at the lake. I have to go to work tomarrow, so we're leaving really early tomarrow morning to come home.

 

I've converted my laptop over to be a portable music jukebox as well as a computer. I only have 8 days of continuous music on this system, my home computer has 203 days on it, but there was no way I was going to spend another 12 hours moving stuff onto my external hard drive for a day long trip.

 

I'm currently wired into the home stereo at the lake house. Luckily the phone jack and everything else I need for this setup is right here, so I didn't need any extra long cords. My system at home has really long wires coming from it all over because I have so darn much stuff hooked to it!

 

That all said and done, I will never buy an Ipod or any other of the popular MP3 players... I know m system takes up a ton of space compared to those little things, but it's more versatile and I can fit a ton of stuff on it! :)

 

I had a very weird Friday night. As expected, I never made it to the concert I had contemplated going to. In fact, I didn't get out of the house before someone called and invited me over. It's nice to know I'm liked enough to get invited places every weekend! Since my divorce, I have been really insecure, but I think I'm finally getting my confidence back.

 

Anyway, I ended up staying with the friend I went to visit overnight. We ended up with a lot to talk about. I'm not going to get into the details here because I'm still trying to absorb things, but basically, my close guy friend apparently has feelings for me. Of course, he has a girlfriend too, so it's a bit overwhelming!

 

I'm just going to lay low and be a "buddy" to this guy for now. He obviously has issues he needs to work out and I know I have a lot of changes coming up in my life, so I can't get into any relationship until I'm moved and into a new job. I've got to keep my priorities straight, because I need to be able to be on my own again before I can let myself get close to anyone.

 

I figure if this guy still cares for me after I've gotten my life together, then I'll consider getting involved with him. But I can't be putting myself into that position until I know I'm ready. True friends won't forget you when you make a major change in your life.

 

Well, the coffee should be ready, so I'm off to go drink it. Whoo-hoo!

[Kyra_Ashleigh 0]

Yeehaw, I just had to hook up my new mouse to my computer. I got sick of changing the batteries in the wireless mouse, so I'm back to beng wired but darnit, my new mouse is cool! It's a UPS promotional mouse to go with my collection of UPS stuff.

 

Ok, so it's a weird hobby, collecting UPS stuff, but I'm a weird girl!

 

Anyway, after my weird weekend, I had to go back to work yesterday. I would have been fine had my guy friend not called me at 10pm last night. I think we got off the phone at 1am!

 

So I'm still really darn tired. He called in sick to work today. I wish I had that luxury.

 

I had something interesting happen to me today. A while back, I applied for a position at the parent company of the parent company of the place that I currently work at. Ok, so basically the company that owns our corporate office (but has nothing to do with our operations).

 

Well, after two very early morning interviews (talking like 4am), they told me that they couldn't hire me because of a "conflict of interest" because their company owns our company more or less. I was a bit upset about it for a long time and am still itching to remind those buttholes about it every chance I get.

 

So the local warehouse for this big company I had applied to sent an intern from the HR department to our store today t give us flyers saying that they were hiring, etc, etc. I told the kid what happened to me and he said, "be right back" and left the store, me holding this big stack of flyers advertising their jobs.

 

He came back about ten minutes later with the employee handbook and said he couldn't find any rules in there that would make it impossible for them to hire me. Then he took my name and number and said he'd talk to HR about it.

 

I've been a bit peeved about them putting me through two interviews for nothing for a long time now. if it were a question of whether or not I could do that job, that would be one thing, but them saying I can't work for them because I technically already work for them is a load of hooey. I work for a guy named Bob. He signs my paychecks.

 

So I gave the kid my information and the name of the guy who did the interviews and he promised he'd call me tomarrow! I'm hoping that someone somewhere misinterpreted the rule because the only applicable rule I saw was for immediate members of a franchisee's family.

 

I think I take more pleasure in the fact that I was able to rub their "mistake" in their faces than anything. After all, if they don't want to hire employees of my current job, they shouldn't come in with flyers telling us what a wonderful job it is and yadda-yadda. Heck, one of our frachises has one of their hiring flyers posted in the store! The only reason anyone knows that it's a no-no is because I actually applied and got turned down. My coworkers have no interest in changing careers.

 

I was actually looking forward to next month when one of the center managers from the warehouse has to come work with us for a day as an "educational" thing. I told the owner to make him "shadow" me for the day so I could give him a piece of my mind.

 

I just don't see how any company can turn down an opportunity to hire someone like me over a misinterpreted rule. I already know 3/4 of the job just from paying attention to what other people say. I already know how to use their "proprietary technology" thanks to a friend of mine. I already know how to read their gibberish sorting labels.

 

Oh, and my boss has agreed to lie to these people when I move, to tell them I have quit before I do so they'll hire me at a warehouse near where I plan to move to. Those guys are stuck with me either way, might as well make it easy on themselves! :evil:

 

You know, I think I'm having fun messing with these corporate types, if nothing else.

[Kyra_Ashleigh 0]

Today was another lousy workday for me but I'm finally home now! :huh:

 

I stopped off at the deli and had a few beers with the guys. It was nice. It's still kinda weird for me to be "just one of the guys" but these people are all so very cool. Luckily I wasn't the only girl there tonight. One of the guys wives showed up with her baby niece. We were all oohing and awwing at the baby. I don't think my daughter was ever so small! B)

 

I still have three days of work to get through before my one-day weekend. I'm paying for taking two weekends off in a row now, this is my third working weekend in a row.

 

I have plans to take my guy friend to a concert on Friday. We'll see how that goes, basically, he told me if i wanted him to come with me, I'd have to drive. After all, he drives a truck all day and doesn't want to drive anywhere after work. I don't blame him at all!

 

I hate to always be the one to drive places, which is weird because I'm really easily freaked out if I'm not the one driving. I used to insist on driving everywhere because I'm so scared of other people's driving. All the time my ex husband and I were together, either I'd insist on driving, or I'd be repeating over and over, "please don't kill me, please don't kill me" over and over and over.

 

I think I trust this one friend to drive more than anyone else (if he wanted to) because he's a professional driver. I *know* he's safe to ride with.

 

Ok, so I have a weird phobia. :huh:

 

I never heard back from that kid who took my phone number yesterday either. Hmm... I'm almost wondering if he didn't offer to help me get that job so he could get my phone number for himself! Nah. :lol:

 

I'm a bit worried that I might have crossed the line into flirting with one of my guy friends this evening. Heck, I know I flirted with someone this evening... just a little. A guy I hadn't met before came into the deli and it turned out he was married, but he was sure nice to look at. I have an agreement with the friend who I was introducedto these people by to not get involved with any of them, but us girls DO like to look! :blush 2:

 

It's definitely a little weird for me to be single again. I pretty much have no diea what I'm doing. I'm just lucky I have a few good friends looking out for me so I don't do anything stupid.

[Kyra_Ashleigh 0]

It's Friday. I'm supposed to be going out. Waiting for friend to call.

 

You know, the usual.

 

I spent most of the afternoon cleaning my car since I'm the one who has to drive to this club we're going to. It's amazing how much stuff I carry around in that poor little car! :lol:

 

It's all in the trunk now. B)

 

I armor-all'ed the interior and took it to a car wash. I was peeved, put $5 in that darn thing and the car's still only half clean on the outside. Oh well, I live in the country, it would just get dirty again right away anyway. B)

 

I'm just glad the week's almost over. I'm tired of working six day weeks and trying to have a life at the same time!

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It's Tuesday and I had to be at work early today because our manager fell in a hole.

 

Yes, a hole. Over the weekend. Landed on his backside, hurt his back. :)

 

I just got an email from one of my friends saying Novatone is playing a show next Monday! Whoo-hoo! Happy dance! :(

 

I ended up going out alone Friday night. My friend wussed out on me because he had something to do Saturday morning. I wasn't too mad about it... but it stinks to have to go out by yourself.

 

I'm already wishing this week was over. The upside is that I get off work early today because I had to come in early. Yeee-haw!

 

I really, really don't like coming to work early though. I've gotten used to having the same schedule every day and now I'm all out of whack again. Blah. At least they could give me some OT for this... but instead they just swapped the scedule so everyone else gets more hours.

 

Maybe I'll get to go out with my buddy tonight. Assuming he actually gets an 8-hour day instead of the standard "indefinite" workshift. :)

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Well, my daughter is having a ball pushing my mattress off the box spring on my bed. I've had to put it back twice already! :)

 

She's 2 1/2.... and yet she's so strong!

 

I had a bad Friday. It started out really good, but one of my good friends lost his temper at me for saying something silly. He's going through a hard time right now, and I understand, but my feelings are still hurt. I really don't know what I did to set him off. I'm just going to give him some space for a while... I don't know what else I can do to help him with the problem he's having.

 

I sold my '66 Mustang back to my grandpa today. I needed the money to get some dental work done. I hope my grandpa enjoys the car even though he can't drive it anymore. He hasn't driven in over six months, but he loves that car so much!

 

I'm sad that I sold the car, but I really need to get my teeth fixed. I grind them in my sleep and they are all messed up to the point that I'm embarassed to smile.

 

I had a good time this afternoon playing in the sprinkler with my daughter. Sunny days off are so much fun!

 

I also have a few work-related possibilites coming up that are good. I apparently impressed someone from our parent company quite a bit on Thursday. So I may get an offer from that end... if not, there's talk of a promotion in my future at my current job. Either way, it's a wait and see thing, which is fine for me. I'm looking at needing a few more months before I can move anyway.

 

Well, I think it's about time to try and get kiddo to go to sleep. She's being a little monster tonight! :)

[Kyra_Ashleigh 0]

I had a busy day yesterday. I worked all day, then met up with a friend at the deli for about an hour, then went into Seattle to meet up with some of my girlfriends.

 

We went to see a band we like, but they only played five songs, so we were disappointed. I ended up going over to my buddy's house and staying there in his spare bed because I didn't want to drive home.

 

I woke up at 4:30 this morning. That's the downside to staying with friends, you wake up and don't know where you are at first, so you wake up much faster and can't go back to sleep!

 

So now I'm really tired... and I have to leave for work in a few minutes.

 

I'm looking for a new dentist right now, which has been a pain in the butt so far. Nobody I knew could recommend a good dentist.

 

So, a helpful hint, if you are looking for a good quality business in your area for whatever reason... just ask the UPS Guy! They know everybody! :P

 

I now have a list of the best dentists within a mile of my work! Now I just need to start calling them!

 

Well, I'm off to work! Gonna get there a bit early and sit in the office making personal phone calls! :unsure:

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Well, I'm finally recovered from my night out on Monday! I need to learn that my 28-year old body can't function well on four hours of sleep! <_< :unsure:

 

I went to bed at 9pm last night, so I am rested again. Just in time to go out tonight to an unplanned concert. Hopefully I'll get to sleep earlier tonight than on Monday.

 

Things are pretty quiet at work right now, so I get to goof off. It's nice to have a bit of quiet time, but in reality, I can't stand it when it's like this for hours on end. I'm too hyper to sit still that long.

 

I'm trying to get my plans together for the 4th of July. I might go down to Tacoma with my daughter and my cousin, but it all depends on if we want to brave the crowds! :lol:

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Well, I took my daughter to her first concert yesterday. It was quite a long day. I ended up brining my ex-husband along and we had fun for the most part. He's a really impatient guy sometimes, but we got along well enough.

 

So, we got into the concert we were seeing, the band started and my daughter fell asleep right away. I guess she doesn't share my enthisiasm for The Boinkers!

 

I have a long day ahead of me tomarrow. I have to run a bunch of errands and then pick up my grandpa's live-in caregiver from the airport. I fear I'll be permanently sick of the airport by the end of the week. My ex and my daughter are going to grandma's house in Baton Rouge and I agreed to drive to the airport.

 

My best guy friend's birthday is this coming weekend. My buddy Mike stopped by my work today to complain that nobody ever goes to clubs with him anymore, so I suggested we take "L" out for his birthday, "get him drunk and see what he does!"

 

I hope Mike didn't tell "L" what I said. I think he might be a bit frightened!

 

Either way, I'm looking forward to the weekend. There are some good concerts going on and it's going to be tough to decide what to go do!

 

I'm just happy right now that I don't have to work tomarrow. I covered for our manager today and, as usual, there was a major crisis because he forgot to tell someone something really important. It seems that nobody told our "runner" that he needed to pick up the company car over the weekend, so we had no vehicle to run packages to the different stores! Luckily our owner brought his van so we could get our mail and the mail for the other two stores. But it's frustrating that our manager seems to forget something like that every time he takes and extra day off!

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My grandpa and his new caregiver have gone off to the summer house, so I am alone at home now for the rest of the summer! :)

 

It's nice, first thing I did was turn down the heater and take a shower with the bathroom door open! How nice!

 

I'm happy we found a permanent caregiver. This way my grandpa can travel and do the things he wants!

 

My friend whose birthday is Sunday had me over for dinner last night. He really loved the gifts I got him. I spent a bit of money, but money's no object when it comes to the special people in my life! :blink:

 

I took my ex-husband and my daughter to the airport this morning. I'm tired, only got about four hours of sleep because their plane left really early. I hope their trip goes well, my ex tends to stress out a lot and he's not the most fun to travel with. I'd worry more, but I know how excited Katie is to see her grandma! :)

 

As a side note: I can't believe how much stuff my ex packed! Those suitcases must have been 70 lbs each! And of course, I had to carry them up to the baggage check since he had our daughter to look out for! :pops shoulders back in sockets:

 

I have to go to work in an hour and then after I'm off, I'm coming home to take a nap. I'm exhausted! I think I'm going out with some of my girlfriends tonight, assuming they're not still mad at me for acting so foolish the last time we got together! :blush 2:

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Have I mentioned lately how much I hate the airport? :lol:

 

So, I was supposed to pick up my ex-husband and daughter from the airport at 9pm last night. Flight cancelled. So they get a flight that comes in two hours later (past my bedtime). Then, the plane's 45 minutes late. Then a suitcase gets lodged in the conveyor belt... hour wait for luggage.

 

I got to bed at 3am. I'm at work. And I have no patience for anyone whining right now. :lol:

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I'm very saddened to hear that James Doohan passed away this morning. From what I've heard of the man, he was a class act all the way!

 

I decided on a whim to go check out a condo that looked really good on the realtor's site I look at often. Well, close proximity to the high-tech jail that seems to have breakouts all the time is not on my list of criteria for a place to move to.

 

There's no way I could justify moving to a place that looks so nice on the inside when it's in a trashy neighborhood.

 

Anyway, it looks like my ex's re-fi plans are going in the right direction, meaning I'm now immersing myself in trying to find new employment in the city I plan to move to. I'm also getting more serious about finding a place. There's one place I've been eyeing, but I fear it will be sold by the time I get my payout.

 

I'm pretty disappointed that I went all the way down there to look at that condo and it was in such a bad location. Even worse, I couldn't reach any of my friends in the area, so I had to come right home. What a waste of an evening.

 

At least I'm a little more sure of my first choice in neighborhoods.

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Our trip to the lake this weekend was a a real bummer. We got up there and there were 20 unexpected guests already there! :P

 

Well, they weren't totally unexpected, I guess my cousin and I had a mis-comunication so I thought this group of people was coming up next month!

 

I didn't feel like trying to fight for a bed to sleep in, so we stayed a few hours, visited, went swimming and some fun stuff like that. And then we drove home. We did have a good time while we were there. Our friend's 4-year old is the same size as my two-year old! I think he's kinda adopted her as a little sister... he was following her around all day, hugging her! :P

 

But six and a half hours in the car. Ugh. I slept like the dead last night! :lol:

 

I was thinking of going to a festival in Seattle today, but I've decided I don't feel up to dealing with the crowd. So Katie and I are going to play in the yard sprinkler and fun stuff like that for the afternoon!

 

Friday night, I ended up staying the night with my best guy friend. I had been packing for my trip and he invited me over. So I went over and we talked for a long time. At some point I fell asleep, woke up a bit later with him laying across my arm. Couldn't feel it. Tried to shove sleeping friend off numb arm. Finally, I managed to wake him up. So he went to bed in his room and I fell back asleep in his guest bed.

 

I adore that man so much. I'm trying to not get too close to him though, not with him having a girlfriend. He was telling me the other night that someday soon I'll end up meeting a boy who sweeps me off my feet and I'll probably stop being his friend then. I actually got a bit indignant about his comment, I don't just drop my friends. He insisted that the reason he said that was because it's not the norm for a girl to have a guy as a best friend, especially when she's dating someone else. I guess he thinks we'll still talk, but I wouldn't be "allowed" to go over and have a beer with him anymore. I'm the type that if the person who I'm dating doesn't respect my friendships with others, then they're not the right person for me.

 

He sounded so sad when he said what he did. I can't believe he would actually think I'd ever go and forget him when he's been so good to me. :P

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I've had a lot on my mind recently. I mentioned in my last post about my best guy friend and how he's saying I'll get a boyfriend and stop talking to him.

 

A few of my friends have told me it might be a good time for me to really tell him how I feel about him. I'm scared to death because I don't want to risk ruining our friendship, but this man really means the world to me.

 

While it would be safer for me to keep my feelings to myself, I always try to live my life like every day was my last, so in keeping with those ideals, I should just tell him and see what happens. I actually called him a minute ago to spill my guts, but he wasn't at home. I guess it's a sign I should keep my mouth shut.

 

[Kor37 9]

You mentioned he has a girlfriend. Don't you think telling him how you feel now would put a lot of undue pressure on him?

[Kyra_Ashleigh 0]

Oh, I ended up talking to him last night and what I ended up saying to him wasn't all mushy-gushy or anything like that. I'm trying to respect where he is in his life right now, so I was as tactful as I could be.

 

I just told him that his friendship meant a lot to me and I couldn't imagine not having him in my life.

 

I wanted to let him know I care, but at the same time, I'm going through some bg transitions rigt now myself and I have to keep my perpective.

 

Today I quit smoking. I may be a little weirded out for a few days until I get used to not smoking, but it's a good thing!

[Kor37 9]

Sounds like you said all the right things. Also, congratulations on quitting smoking! Best of luck in staying away from that stuff.

[Kyra_Ashleigh 0]

Sounds like you said all the right things. Also, congratulations on quitting smoking! Best of luck in staying away from that stuff.

 

Thanks for the congrats. I've had a hard time of it today and actually had to throw away my "emergency pack" when I caught myself about to light one up out of habit. I think I'll get through just fine, though I'm worried that I'll have a hard time this weekend since I have family visiting. Being around other smokers is going to be difficult for a while!

 

I had a good day today. This morning I went to the dentist to have the preliminary consult to get my teeth fixed. I'm very impressed with the new dentist I found.

 

Then I went and visited my buddy for a while. We went bike riding and he insisted on showing me every place in his neighborhood that was for sale. I think he really has his heart set on me moving closer so he'll have someone to go biking with!

 

I have to be careful that I don't move down there for the wrong reason. But it's the nicest neighborhood that's in my price range! It's also really close to my two preferred employers for when I change jobs.

 

I would likely be living on theother side of the "lake" from my friend. The entire neighborhood is built around these man-made lakes that are really just scummy water ponds. We were laughing today about howa lotof the places are advertised as "waterfront property"!

 

My buddy's going to be out of town for a while visiting his girlfriend while he's on vacation. I'm going to miss having him around.

 

I still don't understand his relationship with this woman. Many times he's told me that he knows "she's not the one" for him, but she's the closest he's found so far. I don't know why a person would waste their time in a relaionship with someone they know isn't right for them. Wouldn't it be better to keep looking for someone who is?

 

Oh well, when you're friends with someone, you have to let them live their own life and let them make their own mistakes. A person doesn't benefit from being kept from learning these things on their own.

[Kyra_Ashleigh 0]

Well, I have been busy as usual. But as of 4pm today, I am officially on vacation for a week! :lol:

 

I'm still trying to decide if my daughter and I are going to leave for the lake tomarrow morning or if we're going to take my ex to the Star Trek convention and then drive to the lake in the evening. I haven't been to a convention before, but my daughter hates crowds, so it's a tough call! :huh:

 

I'm working on making some CD's to listen to on the car trip. I decided to make a CD to send to my guy friend from the vacation house. It's kind of a joke, really, the envelope has a return address of "Beer & Titties Resort, Your information packet enclosed" on it! I'm hoping to make him laugh since I won't be at work to give him a hard time! :lol:

 

Of course, my CD burner just froze. Yeehaw. Guess it's a sign I have enough entertainment for the car trip!

 

I'll be checking in occasionally from my laptop, but I probably won't have time to update my log. It's looking to be a fun trip though, my cousin is coming out and we're going to take my daughter and do all kinds of fun things!

 

I saw my guy friend the other night. We went bike riding and then watched movies at his place until very late in the evening. I got home around 3:30 am and then had to work the next day. Last night, I went out with my girlfriends to a Novatone concert. I was a little disappointed, they only played for 28 minutes. It took me longer than that to drive to Seattle!

 

I'm kinda thinking that I'm going to end up missing my job a few days into vacation. I'm weird like that... and it doesn't help that lots of my friends come into my workplace during the day.

[Lursa 0]

I really wanted to go to that convention, but my parents said that it was too far for me to go.

[Kyra_Ashleigh 0]

Well, I'm still one holiday for one more day! I don't want to go back to work, they have made me mad by screwing up the schedule really badly. Urgh.

 

I didn't end up going to the Star Trek con. I wanted to, but I had too much to do to get ready for our trip. We had five wonderful stress-free days up at the lake and I came back on Thursday....

 

 

... at which time I had to meet my cousin and then go visit my guy friend because neither of them were available over the weekend to do anything. I was just a bit exhausted Friday morning!

 

Today I went to the Seattle Tattoo Convention! I got a bad tattoo of mine covered over with a new one. It had to be done, I was growing really annoyed with the "ugly blob" on my leg. I had it replaced with a phoenix rising from the fire. It's very meaningful since I'm basically having to start over again after my divorce. It's really sore right now... the first hour and a half always goes fine, but after that, it just feels like raw meat. *ouch*

 

I've been having an interesting time with my guy friend lately. It's going to be weird to go back to work and have to act all professional when he comes into the store... I've gotten spoiled with him having vacation and then me having mine. When I went to get my work schedule the other day, he was there and he stole my cell phone. So I had to chase him. I guess he thought it was okay to mess with me since I wasn't actually working! But I really don't want my coworkers to think I'm flirting with the guy... it's against the rules! *yikes*

 

Well, I need to go to bed. I fear I'm going to have a hard time getting used to going to bed at a decent time after a week's vacation!

[Lursa 0]

I've always wanted to go to bod mod convention, but my parents won't let me in the first place.

[Kyra_Ashleigh 0]

I've always wanted to go to bod mod convention, but my parents won't let me in the first place.

 

 

My advice to you is that if you're thinking of getting a tat or a piercing, wait until you're at least 18. While you wait, look around online and ask your friends about theirs. Make sure if you get a tat, that it has special meaning to you because it's going to be with you for life!

 

The tattoo I had covered up was the result of a bad artist. I had drawn the artwork myself, so it was special to me, but I had to get it covered because the guy *should* have told me ahead of time that it was too small and the lines would bleed together over time!

 

It pays to be informed about who you go to for your work. Research, research, research. When I decided to have my bad one covered over this weekend, I spent eight hours looking at the websites of everyone who was to be at the convention, so I could pick the right person. My first choice was doing a full leg tat for a guy, so he was busy all day, but my second choice managed to get started with me about a half hour after I approached him. It was a very good choice, he had done one of my other tats, and I already knew what to expect.

 

As far as piercings and other mods go, yes, the hole will close if you take your ring/barbell out. But you will also have a nifty little scar. I pierced my own nose when I was 19... had just come from the dentist after having some work done on my front teeth and decided that since it was numb, I'd go ahead and stick a needle through! So I went running out to buy a ring to replace the safety pin in my nose... and stupid me, I bought a ring that was too thick... so then I shoved it through the little hole *after* I could once again feel my face! :o

 

So, remember, DIY is not a good idea! And beware of any piercer who uses a "gun" on a part of the body other than the earlobes! It's a very bad idea! If your piercer pulls out a piercing gun.... run for your life, even if he already has your money!

 

And I no longer have my nose pierced. I discovered the hard way that my allergy to cheap metals extends to surgical steel as well. A day after I pierced it, my face was covered in an itchy rash type reaction from the metal on and in my skin! I gave it two weeks and discovered that it wasn't going to go away unless I took out the ring. I was much happier afterwards!

 

If you have any allergies or skin conditions, you need to discuss those with your tattooist/piercer before they do anything. Luckily my skin doesn't react badly with the tattoo needles... porbably because they don't stay on the skin after the work is done!

 

Hopefully this has been helpful! Remember, you have to live in your skin, so take the time to really think about any body mods before you do them, they will be with you in one way or another for the rest of your life!

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I'm working on a present for one of my online friends right now. I'm about halfway done, but it's taking forever. I wish I could just go to bed and just let things do themselves, but it doesn't work that way!

 

My work week has been a drag so far. I'm tired. Blah.

 

Of course it doesn't help much that I went over and helped a friend set up his new computer last night. We stayed up much too late and we've only started the process. Dude needs to download his own messenger services! Of course, I'm sure I'll get a call to go over and help again.

 

He's so cute... he's not very good with computers... he types with *one* finger... period! No wonder he wanted me to save all his sites into favorites for him... it takes him forever to type one URL. And because he only types with *one* finger, the shift key is out of the question! :P

 

At least now I know why he'd send me a one or two work reply to my three-paragraph emails. It's not that he didn't want to talk, it just takes him too long to actually write anything of substance! After all this time, I know for sure he wasn't blowing me off!

 

Oh, and I've had Kenny Rogers stuck in my head all day! Not that it's a horrible thing or anything, but I *hate* having anything stuck in my head for too long!

 

Well, I have to go and text message my buddy good night. He seems to have better luck typing messages on his phone!