*~Luthien ó Lórien~*

[Mike 5]

That's awesome LL..Sounds like you had a fantastic time..The Elf fair is there every year ? If it is I'm sure you'll go back..I enjoyed seeing the photos on the other thread..I hope you can post more..

[Lady Luthien 0]

That's awesome LL..Sounds like you had a fantastic time..The Elf fair is there every year ? If it is I'm sure you'll go back..I enjoyed seeing the photos on the other thread..I hope you can post more..

thanks!

It was a lot of fun and ill post more photos but i need to get them hosted first so.

And yes the Fair is every year,this was my second time going there and it was even better!

[Lady Luthien 0]

teeheee! guess who came by yesterday??My friend from Sweden arrived :o :o

It was soo kew although i did have to speak english all the time which was kinda tough in the beginning but u get used to it

We went for a walk by a lake nearby and talked.Its so kewl to finally talk to a person in real life when u only know him/her thru the internet,we had fun and it really clicked so that was all nice.

 

Today my other "internet" friend is coming also to meet her and me and were gonna go into town for some shopping and i think we will have fun today,and off course make a lot of photos

 

Anyways thats it for now,she already leaves tomorrow :huh: but were still gonna enjoy this day :(

 

~Luthien~

[Lady Luthien 0]

:huh: :o :( My friend from Sweden is leaving today and I dont know when i will see her again in real life,thats probably gonna be next year :o But I cannot wait that long!

Well we did have fun last night

 

We only slept 5 hours and we sang dutch and swedish little songs,and talked about a skeppmonster Something swedish or something haha.Were both really tired today *yawn* but I mean her visit was soo short that we couldnt go to bed,then it would be even shorter!Well we made lotsa photos so I think I will post some here.

 

~Luthien~

[Lady Luthien 0]

So today was kind of a sad day bcuz my friend left this morning and we waved untill we didnt see the car anymore.

I learned a lot of swedish though like Skeppmonster and Morot We had soo much fun but it was waaay too short!

Ive been to bed this afternoon bcuz i only slept for like 4 hrs last night.

I already miss her,it really clicked and we had a lot of fun.

Weve met on a lord of the rings website last year and we have been talking ever since and now we met in real life,which is always a wee bit scary but it was fun and it usually just clicks with the pple i know thru the internet.

 

Well and now im gonna work the whole summer to get enough money to get a ticket to Goteborg to visit my friends there :) That will also be the first time in real life and well you all may know her its Nachtvogel on this site and i cannot wait!

 

thats it for now,im kinda tired,sad a bit depressed and i didnt eat all that much today so im a wee bit dizzy

 

~Luthien~

[nachtvogel 0]

U are comig to Göteborg =D And the days go faaaaaaast ( I hope) so it will seem sooner =)=) HUUUUUUGGGGSSSSS

[Lady Luthien 0]

U are comig to Göteborg =D And the days go faaaaaaast ( I hope) so it will seem sooner =)=) HUUUUUUGGGGSSSSS

yes please let the days go fast!!!But first i have to work or otherwise i wont even get to see Goteborg

[Lady Luthien 0]

Thursday:

 

Today I havent felt so great.I woke up at 10 and found out that my msn messenger and email was down,so i have been working on that till4 o clock to get it back and it made me go crazy and depressed.

And I didnt really care about anything today,not about myself nor other things,ive just been lying in bed most of the time watching tv this afternoon and evening.

Right now its football portugal against England and im not sure who i should cheer for,i dont really mind who wins

But nevertheless its nice to watch.

My friends are gone for a week so they wont be online for a whole week God ill miss em! I always like talking to them and we never seem to run out of things to talk about.

So I dunno what Im gonna do this week Prolly get very very bored :wub:

And maybe ill start writing a letter i dunno yet.

well dont have much more to say,im too depressed to go into it all and tell the whole story,besides u dont even wanna hear it so..

 

 

~Luthien~

[Lady Luthien 0]

Im off soon to some thing i have to do with pple,were going rowing :S:S im sooo not looking forward to it,i got nothing with those pple and its just boring and the weather sucks for it ,so uhm im gonna get bored all night and I cannot watch charmed

[Lady Luthien 0]

Tonight is the last performance with our band :blink: Were quitting next year and tonight we have a closure with 2 other bands.Im gonna miss it really,it was soo much fun the last years :blink:

I did however got the forms i need to fill in for my baseguitarlessons! :) Now thats a positive thing again bcuz i cant wait to learn how to play the base,gonna annoy my parents soo much with the noise

Speaking of parents,guess who is home alone tomorrow?? Right ! Meeeeeee,my parents have to go to this family event and i have been told that I could stay home so Im gonna be behind the computer all day and that evening to the birthday of my friend.

 

well thats it for now,im gonna post some around here and uhm clean my room :P that one is soo necessary.

 

~Luthien~

[Lady Luthien 0]

Today is a pretty nervwracking day for me.I have to go to the therapist at 2 and then i will be told what the results are of the first convo and which treatment i need,im pretty scared actually but i hope everything will work out fine.

 

And ive been trying out this new photoalbum feature! Now thats funny!

But everyone can see your photos now whaha

Well i think im gonna mess again with that and ill hope everything is giong okay this afternoon,i dunno

[hangon 3]

I hope it all goes well today luthien...try not to worry too much i am sure it will be ok and things wont be so scary once you are there...good luck ....... :lol:

[Lady Luthien 0]

Thanks very much!

 

Well I just got home from therapy and they told me what the diagnosis was and it kinda got to me really.

They told me that i got a really bad selfimage and that Im depressed and that i have eatingproblems :lol:

I soo did not expect that and it made me cry really.

I have to go back there in 2 weeks and i need to make an appointment with a doctor in the hospital bcuz i need a full medical exam to see if Im okay and they wanna run some bloodwork and im sooo afraid of needles!!! :lol:

It made me feel really bad and although im okay now im still shocked to hear all that...

[Odo 0]

Little one every thing will be fine.

Keep the Faith love.

:lol:

[Lady Luthien 0]

thanks but im just really afraid at the moment i mean eatign problems??? I dont feel like that,yea i lost some weight this last year but it made me feel better about myself though.

And bloodwork,im really nervous for that at the moment.

[Odo 0]

You will be ok needles are not that bad. I've taken blood from people.

had it done to me hundreds of times. use to donate blood every 8 weeks

and if you have a eating problem they can help you.

Fear not little one You are Tougher than you think

[Lady Luthien 0]

thanks Tokar,ur such a good friend of mine! Im glad we also can be penpals right now bcuz i definitly need ur advice on all this

[Delta 0]

Hi Luthien, I just wanted to send you a *big hug*.

 

Try not to worry about the blood test it won't take long, see if you can take a friend or your mum into the room with you to talk too and take your mind off it.

 

Take care. :lol:

[Lady Luthien 0]

Hi Luthien, I just wanted to send you a *big hug*.

 

Try not to worry about the blood test it won't take long, see if you can take a friend or your mum into the room with you to talk too and take your mind off it.

 

Take care. :lol:

aww thank you Delta!Thanks all of you plpe for your support! :lol:

[Odo 0]

EVIE.thank you

 

:(

:( :(

[Lady Luthien 0]

today is a pretty good day,the weather is nice and this afternoon me and my friend are going out to town to get a birthday present for another friend and do some shopping,i know i shop too much :(

And i have to clean my room bcuz friday my new window is comin and its gonna be HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGE :(

I dont know if im on that 2 days but im sure gonna try

 

And my dad downloaded the movie Thirteen for me I luuuv that one so Im gonna watch it tonight :(

Well thats all for today,not much more to add to this really.

 

~Luthien~

[Lady Luthien 0]

Today has been a pretty sucky day,it started off last night when i got really angry and depressed and cut myself 10 times,not that i care but okay.

And this morning i woke up really early after a horrible night and now im still getting depressed more and more,sometimes it makes me really sick,i just feel stupid,annoying,unworthy,,ugly and fat and why cant i seem to change that image.

I dont know what to do...

[Tal 0]

Ahhh Big :o to make u feel better. Hoe u feel better soon.

 

 

:tank: :tomcat: :tank:

 

 

[Sam The Smuggler 1]

Awwwwww.....

 

*Big Big Big Huge Huggles For Ya* Feel Better Soon..Please.

 

 

I'd Tell You What I Think, But You Already Know.

[ILIKESEVEN 0]

Today has been a pretty sucky day,it started off last night when i got really angry and depressed and cut myself 10 times,not that i care but okay.

And this morning i woke up really early after a horrible night and now im still getting depressed more and more,sometimes it makes me really sick,i just feel stupid,annoying,unworthy,,ugly and fat and why cant i seem to change that image.

I dont know what to do...

Please luthien don,t cut yourself, it is not gonna make it better,

and if you wanna talk out it, i will listen to YOU

[Lady Luthien 0]

Today has been a pretty sucky day,it started off last night when i got really angry and depressed and cut myself 10 times,not that i care but okay.

And this morning i woke up really early after a horrible night and now im still getting depressed more and more,sometimes it makes me really sick,i just feel stupid,annoying,unworthy,,ugly and fat and why cant i seem to change that image.

I dont know what to do...

Please luthien don,t cut yourself, it is not gonna make it better,

and if you wanna talk out it, i will listen to YOU

thanks for responding so kind but im afraid it already happened.yesterday that is.

[A l t e r E g o 9]

I think he's asking you (and I concur) NOT to do it again. What possible good could it do?

 

I'd suggest you go to the blood bank or plasma center and let them bleed you, at least some good would come from that.

[Lady Luthien 0]

I think he's asking you (and I concur) NOT to do it again. What possible good could it do?

 

I'd suggest you go to the blood bank or plasma center and let them bleed you, at least some good would come from that.

the only disadvantage i see is the scars it leaves,it makes me feel calm and better again,i feel like i deserve it and im addicted to it i guess bcuz it releases adrenaline,i cant help stopping it,ive tried about everything,and im not getting therapy for nothing,im getting it to help me stop,but right now when i get depressed i panic its as easily as that.

[A l t e r E g o 9]

Have you heard of Christ? By HIS STRIPES we are healed Please give Him a chance. Just ask him (with Faith) to become a part of your life. When you see the Miracle occur DON'T ignore it or pass it off as co-incidence, begin rejoicing!

[Sam The Smuggler 1]

 

Get Better...Please Do.